So, its been another year. I love looking back over years in my life, seeing how much I’ve grown, how much I haven’t grown, what I’ve accomplished (if anything).

I’ve had this blog for over a year now; that’s a weird thought. In this time, I’ve had 3 jobs (at least), I’ve graduated from Harford (finally!) and I’ve actually gone on my own cell phone plan. (!)

A few days ago I stumbled upon another blog I had for a little while. I mainly whined and moaned on that blog; I never shared it with anyone as it was more of an online journal. Anyway, some of the stuff bothering me then, still bothers me today. But I feel like I have more justification these days to be unhappy compared to a year ago. This of course is my pride in thinking my life sucks more and that my whining is ‘more mature’ as compared to then (does that even make logical sense? whining being mature?).

On the bright side, God has matured me in a few areas, and that gives me hope that I can still turn my life around. He’s also blessed me with closer friends than I had before (see previous post).

I’m grateful God has stretched me. Sure it’s tough as hell sometimes, but God is growing me into something beautiful. And that encourages me.

So in looking over the past year, being a pessimist, I see the bad. Life has been difficult. But I also see the good. God has been incredibly faithful to me. He has “never left me, nor forsaken me”.

It’s also ironic that the verses I put on my first post, are verses I still cling to. (Phil 1:6, Jer 29:11)

God’s doing a lot, he always is, even if we can’t see it. I’m just grateful for milestones like birthdays that make us look back and reevaluate what has happenned in the past year. It’s something I need to do more often.